Happy 10 year anniversary as a healthy non-smoker to me! I know, you’re probably bored about hearing me go on and on about this, but this is a big deal to me, you guys … this is my 11th “Best Day Ever!” I need to celebrate this!
Ok, so I can’t believe I’m about to show you these pics … but this is what I looked like as a smoker:
lololololololololololololomg, I still can’t stop laughing at these pics! Ok, so the two on the left are going out pics, and the two on the right … well you can’t really see the cigarettes, but I thought they were fun.
I honestly LOVE. MY. LIFE! Yeah, I’ve had my ups and downs, and I’ve spent years as a hot mess (see above), but I had (and I’m still having) the best time. Oh sure, at one point I wished I quit smoking sooner, or I wished I never started at all, but all those parts of me were parts that made me who I am today. And you know what? I wouldn’t change any of it.
Now I had to dig DEEP into the archives to find these pics, and I came across all sorts of shenanigans from the last ten years – what a fun time I’ve had! It’s so interesting to me how my definition of fun has changed. I’ve been on this journey of transformation for a really long time, and to be honest, I don’t feel any different. It’s only when I look back at old photos, or journals, or even the old clothes in my closet, that I see how far I’ve come.
So on this day, ten years ago, I opened all the windows in my house, cranked my theme song, and cleaned my entire living space. I dusted, purged, reorganized … basically distracted myself from smoking. I remember feeling so fresh, new, like something exciting was going to happen. But I had no idea what it was.
The only vision I remember having was of me looking healthy, vibrant, and buying expensive things with all the money I saved from not smoking. I never in a million years thought I would discover I actually had enough interest in something to make it my hobby, turn that hobby into a passion, leave the dead-end job I detested, fall in love, be diagnosed with a medical condition that would require a lifetime commitment to medication, turn my passion into a career, learn so much about my physical, mental, and emotional health, open up and heal old emotional wounds, learn to live with the diagnosed condition medication free, fall out of love, smash my own heart into pieces, uncover (most of) my demons, meet hundreds of beautiful people from all over the globe, discover the vastness of what love truly is, get to know me and what makes me who I am, acknowledge my light, and stand in my own power.
When I look at those pics or even think of my life back then, I can’t even make the connection between me today and that guy in those pics. He sure has a lot more hair than I do (lol)! And even though it’s only been ten years, it seems like many lifetimes ago. Where am I now? Well last night I lead a yoga and meditation experience in my own Wellness Centre, tonight I’m presenting my Chakra Dance Party, a workshop I created, at the Toronto Yoga Conference (a dream of mine since 2008), and in two months I’ll be teaching YogaFit Teacher Trainings in Australia! That’s pretty fucking exciting to me.
I honestly feel so truly blessed and amazed at how my life has transformed. I’m so grateful for the universe for bringing all the people who have helped me on this journey into my life to assist me in my soul’s evolution. You guys, I’m no body special, I just knew it was time. I knew deep inside that my heart needed to grow, and that disco ball inside me had to shine. I truly believe that if I can do it, anyone can do it. I don’t have any fancy education, I wasn’t the smartest, or the most good looking, or even the most put together – I’m still not any of those – but I’m someone who did the work. it wasn’t easy and required a lot tears and sacrifice, but I did it. And I’m still doing it – there’s so much farther I want to go, and so much more I want to learn!
It’s my hope that I can, in some way, inspire you to let that glittery disco ball that’s deep within you shine so bright that it makes everyone around you dance. Could you imagine what this planet would be like if there were more disco balls shining all over the place? I’d use hashtag #NewWorld, #WorldPeace, and #BoogieFever.
I love you and all your glittery goodness.