Last week, my dear aunt Patty transitioned from this planet and we celebrated her life with service in a Catholic church. I grew up Catholic and remembered the words to most of the prayers, despite not being a devoted Catholic for the last 15 years. Just before the offering of the bread and wine of Jesus, we all pray the words “I am not worthy to receive you … “ I wondered if this is where it all began for me …
For as long as I can remember, I felt like I wasn’t good enough to have the things in my life that bring me joy. I remember thinking that if I had great things, they would be taken away from me. Or I would deny myself pleasures and joy because, deep down, I didn’t think I deserved it. Now hear me out before I go on – I’m not saying the Catholic church is responsible for this thought pattern. At some point in my life, I chose to accept the idea “I’m not worthy.” And I know I’m not the only one who thinks this way – books have been published on this topic and I have seen it played out in the way others think and act. There’s an plethora of ways that we’ve accepted lack – hoarding, refusing gifts, closing off emotionally, treating others poorly, feeling guilt for having things we’ve worked for, the list goes on and on.
Let’s strip all that way for a second. The universe wants us all to be prosperous and lavish us with a bounty of best. It’s evident in all that grows on this planet – the trees, the plants, the flowers … there’s a plentitude of nutrients, shelter, oxygen, peace, sustenance, beauty … this list goes on … provided by the very thing that gives us life. And naturally, once a planet completes it’s life cycle, another plant grows in it’s place, ready to provide us with that same copiousness, and more! The prayer does end with the words “just say the word and I shall be healed.” My highest power has been signaling me for a long time, and now I choose to be healed.
Abundance is my focus this month, as I weave it through my yoga classes, blog posts, and offerings. My hope is that we all open our arms to give and receive the amazing cornucopia of all things the universe has to offer, for I know as we do this for ourselves, we do it for others as well.
May we all be blessed with a profusion of our deepest heart’s desires.