I can’t believe it – I’m sitting down to write a blog post on my upcoming social media detox, and just as I’m about to begin, I choose to scroll through my Facebook feed one last time. “Lemme check what’s going on before I get started on the next thing,” I often say to myself, and before you know it, I’m plummeting down a cute puppy video rabbit hole and I have no idea how to get out.
Ever find yourself doing things in excess and need to take a break from it? Like when you cut out sugar for a while because you’ve been hitting the Nutella a bit too often, or you abstain from alcohol to rest your liver. That’s where I am right now. I recognized the need for this reset ages ago, but for whatever reason, I wasn’t there. Alas, the time is now and starting June 1st, I begin. For me, it’s like an addiction – I know it’s not good for me 100% of the time, but for whatever reason I keep going back, hoping the next time I’ll learn something new or get a response in some way. Sometimes I’ll find interesting information, like this blog post on the 17 Best Places To Hike In Ontario. More often than not though, when scrolling through Facebook, something tells me “you’re not good enough.”
I know this is not the intention of the individual who is posting a status or pic (although I question the intentions of the “my <view, lunch, experience, workout, etc> is better than yours!” … when did everything become a fucking competition?), but the way I’ve been receiving the message is that I’m not good enough. If I’m working on something and I take a quick peak at my newsfeed and see a post of someone having fun, I think to myself “girl, you need to get out more!” Then when I’m out doing fun things I might check my feed in between LOLs with a friend and see someone post something about working hard on their dream and I the thought “bitch, you need to get your shit together and work more” makes an appearance. It got to the point where I would see an educational post and think “well Patreez, this just proves you know nothing about anything” and I forget all my accomplishments.
What the fuck, Paul? How did you allow it to get this far? I honestly have no idea, and that’s why I’m checking in to rehab and doing this social media detox. Inspired by Dallas Hartwig’s More Social, Less Media program, I’m disconnecting from social media for personal consumption. Yes, I will still be using it to promote my business (I am so grateful for the connections it has brought me on a professional level), and will be doing so in a way that does not allow me to connect through my personal accounts. I’m not doing this because I think social media is bad – on the contrary, I think it is wonderful and love that it exists … I just forgot how to use it constructively and it really has taken over my life.
I’m fucking tired of being a slave to a red square or circle with a white number in it. I’m over all the same memes, quotes, and articles I’ve been seeing for years. And if I see one more gratuitous selfies disguised as inspirational wisdom or well wishes for the week/weekend, I may turn into Frank Grimes(although this post is pretty close). I’ll tell you this much: I’m not here to feed anyone’s ego. I’m here to help people move their bodies and nourish their souls. Whenever I see an above mentioned post, I either roll my eyes, irritably sigh, or even say out loud “well that’s just fucking stupid” and I become this judgemental beast. With each reaction, (which happens more often than I’d like to admit), it depletes my energy levels and sends a wave of non-beneficial energy out into all directions around me, and that’s not serving me or anyone else.
“But Paul, I thought you do yoga … you’re supposed to meditate and be happy and shit – why you letting this bother you?” Well sugarbear, I’m a human being and when I’m tired of something it’s a challenge for me to be all unicorns and rainbows. This is a me thing … I need to get away so I can figure out what’s really going on and come back later if it suits me … that sounds pretty yoga-y to me.
This is very necessary, and also very exciting! It feels very similar to the time I decided to become a healthy non-smoker, and that was probably one of the most transformational things I’ve ever done. I have no idea where this will take me or what I will discover and that’s why it must happen.
I love you. If you’re reading this from any of my social media platforms and you want to stay connected, sign up for my newsletter (I’ll still be sending out my monthly newsletter and updates), send me an email (remember that form of communication?), or give me a call … I’d love to hear your voice!
To all the birthday’s I’ll miss in cyber space: Happy birthday! To all the accomplishments I won’t be able to see posted: Congrats! I’m so proud of you! To all the posts of needing healing, prayers, or the “I just need to vent” posts: The angels surround you with all you need, and I hope it permeates all layers of your being to bring exactly what you need to heal. Even with me not on social media, these sentiments will always be true.